It's been a while since I wrote anything here. I have adjusted myself to my life here, back home in Finland, and prepared myself for my forthcoming start of studies in Edinburgh, Scotland. I've been pleased to meet all my old, dear friends, and it's been nice and easy, for, however well you get to know people when you spend time together in the deserts and canyons without necessary things like showers, it's always a different thing to have people around you to whom you have to make no impression, for they already know who and what you are.
People tend to ask me "So how was it like?". I've learnt to answer "Well, at least it was warm, it's so damned cold in here!". The reason for my answers being restricted to merely that is the ridiculousness of the other alternative - for, if I wanted to tell something, I should tell everything. And everything is really everything; I have been happy, sad, angry, in awe, confused, certain, good and bad, worried, lucky and in peace, all these in multiple situations and variations, and a lot more. But something I always try to remember to tell is that it was a great experience and that I learned a lot about myself.
I collected here some lists about the goods, the bads, and the learned-its. Some of these I already wrote on the latter half of my stay in the States, others I added now when back home.
What made it worth it:
People - That's always how it goes, isn't it? And ACE people (and people I met here that weren't ACE as well, you guys know who you are) were great. In many different ways, of course. Main thing, however, was the so called positive mental attitude , we went through all kinds of weather, all kinds of work and all kinds of, if I may say, shitty situations, and it was possible to have fun through all that, because of you. Thank you, sweeties.
Places - After spending three weeks in Grand Canyon, what else can I say? But it wasn't just that. The sheer emptiness of Lake Mead, the crazy days and nights of Las Vegas, the hippie-ish small downtown Flagstaff, the beaches of San Diego and Hawaii... All that was great, and all that was very different from what I'm used to.
Work - Physical, exhausting, simple, continuous - that is, everything I hoped and expected. I'm physically in a better condition than I've probably ever been. I have had time to think about what do I want to do with my life. I've carried hundreds of buckets of dirt.
Distance - I guess that's what I was looking for, taking distance from everything and everyone back home. It had two benefits - first, I could try my wings in an environment that had no association with anything back home - different language, completely different people, different culture -, and find out whether the person that I'm back home is really the person I am and want to be. Secondly, I found out what I miss when I'm away from it, what has significance in my life.
Mountains and deserts - Including all the natural things that we don't have back home. It's all just incredible. And huge. I miss the possibility of seeing far, here there's always trees to block the way.
Free refills - I have spent seven hours in a restaurant and during that time I drank at least ten cups of coffee for the total of 1.6 bucks. That's pretty sweet.
What I didn't like:
Bread - The white, sugary stuff. Yuck. I missed karelian pies and real, dark rye bread (even if I didn't really eat rye bread before - now I'm really fond of it). Bagels were good though.
Watching what I eat - In Finland I've never had problems with my weight. I don't need to care about what I eat. In the States everything contains so many calories, basically sugar and fat, that everybody gained weight if they continued eating as they did back home.
Public transport - It sucks. Takes an eternity and costs like hell. On the other hand, it's actually quite understandable, since this is such a huge country.
Poisonous things - I've just now realized how lucky I have been starting my camping career in a country such as Finland where we have the total of one poisonous snake and nothing else. Here I have seen in the nature at least one scorpion, couple of poisonous spiders and a rattlesnake. I've learned to the habit of checking my sleeping bag for anything that might have crawled in it during the day, as well as my shoes in the morning and my gloves everytime I take them off.
Lack of toilets - Imagine you're a kilometer away from the closest toilets and all that surrounds you is a crowded trail and on both sides a high canyon wall. Needed some imagination, indeed, during the 10-hour work days.
Illness - The dark side of living without a family is that even if you feel like of fainting because of fever, you still have to go and buy yourself food and cook it, because no-one else will do it for you. Also it's a lot harder to get rid of an illness when doing physical work, because you can't just doze - as it is if you go to classes etc - but really have to work if you go to work.
Music - I realized how good Finnish music really is, being absent and in a situation where only was able to listen to Top-40-hits, religious rock (which was actually quite okay, at times) or country. I need the melancholy.
What I learned:
The meaning of a family - It is quite something to have someone who cares for you whatever you do, for who you are solely.
America - For I never wanted to visit that country before, and now I can't wait to go back. It's so much more than what we see here in Europe - yeah, it is shallowness, but it is also variety, positiveness, nature, opportunities.
Smalltalk - I've chatted with a pizzeria service woman about the Lion King Musical, asked "How are you doing?"s from hundreds of hikers in the Grand Canyon etc. That's just how it goes in there.
Mental strenght - I am not physically strong. But what I found out was that that you can get far with sheer stubborness, or sisu, as we say in Finland.
The meaning of music - I love being back, if for nothing else, for being able to play and compose again.
The change of altitude - As a citizen of Finland I have never realized quite how much it affects the
weather when you go higher. In Phoenix, which was just 2 hours train rides away, it might have been 20 degrees celcius warmer than in Flagstaff.
ESTA - If you are travelling under the Visa Waiver program, that is, if you don't have a visa but are allowed to stay in the States for three months, it can in no conditions be extended. So if you have the smallest feeling of maybe wanting to stay for more than three months, get a visa. It costs, but it costs more to fly home and fly back. Learn from my mistakes.
Free range - In Arizona, if you want to herd cows, all you have to do is to let them go. If you are a land owner and don't want cows on your land, you have to build a fence, since it's not on the cattle owners' responsibility. We spent six days building a fence around an archaeology site just because of one Mad Cowman. Welcome to the States.
Buckets - Easiest way to carry a 5 gallon bucket of dirt is on your shoulder. It gives you bruises, it hurts your shoulders, but it's so much easier than anything else.
So, yeah. Thanks, everybody. I'm still going to put an excessive amount of photos on facebook whenever I have a good moment. I hope I'll meet you all some day in one place or another - you can come visit me here in Finland or in Edinburgh or I might pop at your door some day you least expect it. Until then, safe travels :)